This is my story

An almost daily diary of my drinking, the effects it has on me and the changes I am wanting to make. I guess it will make some very familiar reading to some and be a big surprise to others. Welcome to my world.

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Week 1 Friday: My oldest daughter

Week 1 Friday: My oldest daughter

It is now Friday evening and it has been an okay week. It has been great at the office and the kids have been sweet. Due to a crippling hangover on Tuesday I had one alcohol free evening On the other days I sadly drank a bit too much wine. Slowly over the week I...

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Week 1 Saturday : Night out with the Girls

Week 1 Saturday : Night out with the Girls

Its Saturday and as I work on a Saturday the evening for me is the start of the weekend. I had managed to get up early, hangover free having drunk a little less than a bottle Friday evening. In the morning I went to see my son play football and then headed straight to...

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Week 1 Sunday : A Sunday hangover – a wasted day.

Week 1 Sunday : A Sunday hangover – a wasted day.

It is Sunday morning 7am.  A few hours ago I fell asleep on the sofa and I wake up cold, fully dressed, shoes on, bag and telephone next to me. I taste stale alcohol and must absolutely stink. My head is full and I have the immediate realisation that I went out last...

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Week 2 Tuesday: Cold Turkey in High Heels

Week 2 Tuesday: Cold Turkey in High Heels

Yesterday morning I decided to start this blog and the more I think about it, the more I like the idea. I have often looked for 'I drink too much' soulmates on the internet and although I know that there are loads of people like me, you are hard to find. There are...

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Week 2 Wednesday: Seeking help for my wine addiction

Week 2 Wednesday: Seeking help for my wine addiction

Today I did something that I never thought I would do or that I would have to do. I went to see my GP and told her that I have a drinking problem. It was all a bit surreal. Having three kids, I know my GP pretty well and am quite a regular visitor to the Van...

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Week 3 Wednesday: My first road to recovery meeting

Daan led me into a small meeting room. There was nothing special in there. Four walls, a table, two chairs and a big window facing onto the garden. He puts a big glass of water in front of me and introduces himself. Psychologist, teamleader. I observe that he is...

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Week 3 Friday: My very boozy school reunoin

Week 3 Friday: My very boozy school reunoin

A school reunion from my high school has been planned for the last 6 months. It was not definite who would be there so I left deciding whether or not to go until the last minute. I travelled back to my home town early Friday morning. As I had a few things to do and...

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Week 3 Saturday: Recovery after a very heavy party.

Week 3 Saturday: Recovery after a very heavy party.

After the reunion yesterday I was meaning to travel back home this afternoon. I had especially booked a late train (6pm)  and a late option for departing the hotel room (1pm) but after getting to my bed at 5am even this was impossible. I woke up at 11am, fully...

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Week 3 Sunday. A perfect day for a last day of drinking

Week 3 Sunday. A perfect day for a last day of drinking

I woke early and caught the 8am train back to Rotterdam. I was thinking of popping into to see my family but my son had a football game at 12 and I had promised him that I would be there having missed the match yesterday. Not wanting to disappoint again, I made sure...

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Week 4 Monday: My first cold turkey day

Week 4 Monday: My first cold turkey day

I have woken up with a mild hangover. Nothing too bad, today it will be survivable. For hopefully the very last time, I woke at 4am with a dry mouth and remained restlessly tossing and turning until 5am when I fell asleep again. It is 2 days to my first therapy...

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Week 4 Monday: My diagnosis meeting for rehab.

Week 4 Monday: My diagnosis meeting for rehab.

It is 10 days since my meeting with Daan and I am returning to the clinic to find out the diagnosis and be told which form of rehab will be recommended. My appointment is on Monday morning (9.30) and I arrive 20 minutes late. I managed to miss both the train and the...

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Week 4 Tuesday: Cold turkey hair extensions

Week 4 Tuesday: Cold turkey hair extensions

I think I may start blogging a lot. I feel the need to write things down. Perhaps it will help the with easing the feelings of the next couple of days. It is now Tuesday morning 11am and I am feeling a bit edgy. Not sure why. I cannot imaging that my body is aching...

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